I'm beginning to feel like I'm a bad blogger. I noticed that I'm losing followers and this doesn't surprise me at all. I haven't been updating and been MIA for a long time. From apartment hunting, moving, and other personal matters, I had some pretty hectic and stressful months. I'm at a point in my life where I'm feeling stagnant. I feel stuck and I don't know how to pull myself out of this runt. I'm guessing I'm experiencing an existential crisis but I'm not feeling like my Self at all. It's to the point where I'm finding comfort in sweet foods and of course gaining mucho weight. Funny because I never had a sweet tooth so I know my body is giving me signals that something ain't right. I also found out that I'm severely anemic and been doing a lot of blood work lately to figure out the cause. I've been extremely tired and sluggish. I've lost motivation to paint, write, draw, and sometimes even to read. These past few months I've been living my life as if I'm a robot. A lot has to do with not liking my environment, friends moving to different States, other's getting married and starting a family, not liking my 9-5 jobs, and not knowing how to launch a career with my passion. I feel really lost right now and I apologize for the silence on this blog. I'm pretty sure I'm going through a phase, however I need to take some time to myself and sort out my emotions and thoughts. I don't know how long this condition will last, but I'm sure it's a process that I have to go through in order to grow. Once again, I'm sorry for not updating or sharing but I will be back when I'm ready.
Hope you understand.
Sincerely,
A girl going through some changes
Searching for my balance
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